11:51 PM

replies to tags:

vold: haha. i thin this one nicer right, RIGHT!? yea, he looks terrible normally alr. haha. =P
rena: ROARS! I MISS YOU TOO!! =(
wilson: haha. no lar, i play such a minor part in percussion only sia!
shuning: LOL! ya lar. made me so pai seh. but there was one day i say another SOMEONE holding SOMEONE's hand crossing the road at near mj there ah!
cedric: yea, i heard you guys shout. thanks!! haha. ya lar! LOOOONNGG tickets are sold to LOOOOONGG people what. ;)
ser: haha. ya lor. made me feel so kuku. lol. no wonder you prefer me. HAHA
kris: definitely! more than a zillion. it's infinity times better lar! haha. I LOVE YOU TOO! =))
shiqi: YOYO! I WAN TO GOOOOO!!! inform me about more details. heehee.

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11:20 PM

this week flew by so fast that i didn't even know today is actually Saturday. i spent most of these days emo-ing, without knowing the real reason behind. i find myself waking up in tears and sitting through lessons suddenly wiping away my burning tears. OMG, it's embarrassing. i'm already close 18 (<5 months away) but yet i'm still dropping my tears for unknown things. argh..

thank you, my friends, who showered their love on me and tried to give in to me whenever, where ever, whatever. i feel so loved. thank you. =)

i got my new specs already. i thought i would look nice in that, but apparently i'm not too happy about my new specs (because i didn't take it's photo). maybe i shall sleep on it again and i'll get my new ones again. mwahaha.. (ok, actually i'm not that mean)

i bought my slippers! it's really embarrassing when i walked around Bugis in my old slippers with the front part of the sole falling and slapping damn hard on the surface i walked on. i bet somebody walked past me sniggering. like, thanks ah.








on a totally light note, i feel extremely happy today (though MR TTYS didn't want to take photo with me). after all the rain and thunder, there's bound to be big big sunshine. i felt the sun beating down on me strongly today (literally and not-literally). the biggest credit goes to mr boyfriend, who pathetically has to suffer my attitude problem in silence. thank you so much. you are more than what you think you are to me.

i love you

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10:34 AM

a week ago, i sat in front of the computer thinking of what to type for the past week. and now, i'm here a week later, thinking of what to type for the past week again. i think week-posting is not a very good idea, it reminds me of my poor memory.

i think lessons are interesting when the teachers can relate really well with the students, where jokes and serious things are clearly and un-clearly defined at the same time. argh, the contradictory. thank you, teacher, for opening up my mind and allowing me to think more clearly. the talk with you made an impact to me. thank you.

wei jin's 18th birthday swensen's ice cream cake by Mr wong. =)

i seriously sucks at standing broad jump. boo. i need stronger legs to jump more than my height. boo. i have to retake the bloody 6 items in May all over again. boo. with my results from the other stations, i can well get a GOLD la! boo. i have to re-run my 2.4km, when i ran less than 15 minutes this time. boo. i have to break my own record again. boo. how many records do i have to break? boo. but never mind, at least i have the integrity.

i got my new 3-in-1 printer!! =)

getting pissed every now and then by even the smallest matter. i think my temper has been trained to become worse. i used to be tolerant and not giving any attitude
to just anybody. oh wells. i think i'm a freak. at times, i just show my attitude and not care about anything that is happening around me; but i think it is worse off when i'm truly feeling down yet i still have to put on a cheerful front so that nobody asks me what happened. i want people to care about me, at the same time, i don't. i just need someone to understand me, but i think there's none.

the east zone concert cordially put up by MJ, VJ and TPJ was 21APR, yesterday. this is the first time that i didn't ask any of my friends to the concert. this is the first time that i sold the least tickets. this is the first time that i only play a teeny weeny part in a concert. when i receive my tickets, i just passed them to my parents and asked them to go, because my brother was going to perform solo for that concert. i bet they went for my brother. oh wells.

the full guan yue

i was angry, pissed and tired yesterday. i told you about my fiery temper nowadays. why can't some just understand?! at most times, i mix angriness and sadness together. i think they go together. but, i hate it when people conclude that i'm just tired when i'm not. i hate it when people conclude that i'm just angry when i'm not. i hate it when people just... don't understand anything. ARGH! i'm difficult to understand lar.

randomly,
i want my girlfriends to go shopping with me. i want to do my shopping! i want shopping to take my sadness away. shopping is my drug. i want to dress up prettily and go shoppingggggggg. i so want to whine. i think i neglect my girlfriends a lot lately. i should make time for them. i hate school work.

this is the most spastic series of photos i took this week. credits to yun long who tried to look angry..


and the result of sleeping on the sofa on a tired night..




**
now, i begin to wonder.. whether i'm right at my decision.

oh damn it.

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10:50 AM

co occupies most of the days in a week. monday, wednesday, friday and even saturday are occupied. i just hope everything will end damn soon, of course with a remarkable end. we have less than a month now, co-ians. hang on there! =)

12apr07 is the happiest day of the week because of the presence of my monkey god. he made everything possible! i just want to spend my time being with him. <3

i have been going home late almost everyday. i know my parents aren't exactly happy or proud of me doing that because actually i don't go home late often. a good girl i WAS. but on the other hand they can't equate going home late to being a bad girl. ok, i admit i haven't been doing my work and i am always distracted. oh wells. i will work hard, REALLY. i will get that bursary award for MID YEAR. I WILL. i shall start studying already.

MY PHONE BILL HAS EXCEEDED! boooo.. i couldn't sms or even call for 7 long days. =(

anyway, on a lighter note, i got A for PW. woohoo! thanks constance for your constant nagging. although my group didn't achieve 100% A, but nobody got below B, which is already good enough. i think my class achieved 50% As and Bs. COOL huh! =)

i think this post sounds kinda random but i just want to do some update lest someone complains my blog is dead. bleah.




some random photos taken..









I LOVE LONG BUS RIDES! yay!

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10:24 AM

replies to long-time-no-reply-tags:

kris: thanks babe! i know what u talking about. =) all the best to u too, although i guess u don't need it. haha.
sebas: aiya.. i can't go what. u all never invite to the next LOR!
ser: haha. =P
xilef / doris: oh oh.. suspended cymbal is known as diao cha. haha.
kris: SORRY HOR! who looks younger? hahhaa. =P
vold: haha. u sure u qualified not? ltr u anyhow cast here cast there, i die sia! haha
cedric: YES I KNOW!!!! YIPPEE!!! U ALL DAMN PRO LAR!!! =))
cw: lol. how come u have to know? thanks. all the best to u too! =)
ser: haha. u ate it b4 too huh! haha. cool rite. but i tell u, CALAMARI is better!!
`fatiN: haha. i take that as a 'thank you', so i say U ARE WELCOME BABE! <3
S: HAHA! ya lar ya lar. pretty smooth gorgeous JIE SHI's hand. sorry ffor lying, coz i was late so have to por u lar. haha. =P
pierre: haha. far east or raffles. next time i bring u go eat eat lar. haha
doris: haha. THANKS A MILLION!!! =) haha. romantic wat. LOL.
ser: relinked. =)



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11:00 PM

CO ended late at 8pm. some may say that we are chiong-ing super hard for SYF. i certainly do hope so that it is true for all members in CO. but... oh wells.

CO is so stressful. school work is so stressful. friends' problems are stressful. ARGH! everything is stressful lar. i just hope somethings will just take my mind off those. thanks.

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8:54 PM

my penchant for a handsome Monkey God. =))

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9:18 AM

03Apr07 Tuesday

went down to TECC to see how the juniors of PRSSCO play. really, i was damn touched when i hear their pieces. PRSSCO -- the shared laughter, the shared sorrows, the shared memories, i will always remember. i love the juniors, the seniors and the same-batchers. i'm so missing all of them. =(

04Apr07 Wednesday

PRSSCO really do us proud. we clinched something that was pretty unexpected... but expected at the same time: GOLD WITH HONOURS. if i were there to support them, i would have screamed YES AH! straight into the ears of the person next to me. PRSSCO, i love you. =)

how i wish MJCO would have achieve almost the same kind of response i had for PRSSCO on 10May. SYF is just 6 days and a month away...

05Apr07 Thursday

changi village is.. =))

07Apr07 Saturday

had CO from morning till evening. it's the crucial training now. damn. but i think that the idea of instructors coming to teach is really beneficial. i think Saturday trainings are best. we get to learn the most things and i like to learn new things. haha.

i changed to percussion, playing the huh?-what's-the-name instrument. i love being in the percussion section because it's so cool to play these instruments with force. imagine you were in a fed-up mood.

**

north-point is in yishun, now then i know. haha. =))

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12:43 PM

i get pissed off easily nowadays. i don't know why. i hate hearing things about me going round the school. i don't care whether it's good or bad. really. it's pissing me off.

march has always been a very lousy month for me since seconday school days. maybe the curse revived again. eww..

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anyway, on a lighter note, i think this looks nice.


if i could get my hands on these..

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10:48 AM

26mar07 Monday

went to TM with Bang, thinking of catching a movie. but we just walked around and had dinner. and we did the most fascinating thing that i have ever done on a weekday -- walked back home all the way from TM. i think it was kind of a 2-hour walk, but the walk somehow seemed short. maybe my legs grew longer? hmm.. =)


28mar07 Wednesday

CO recruitment is dead. i think this time the numbers dropped really drastic. i'm getting really worried for CO. i have been feeling like this all the while, but recently i seriously think that we should not be showing our fright to the public, this really give the impression that CO is not doing well.

issues of me not even showing any tinge of stress of CO not getting good results for SYF is going around like nobody's business. i said, it's not me not being stress or what. it's me being optimistic and trying to cheer you guys up. who doesn't feel stress when their own cca is turning upside down? i'm even more worried than you, i'm even more stressed than you. other ccas are facing problems too, but do we know? do we have to be so transparent as to let other people know how we are doing, how bad we are doing, in fact? it's not the right time.

instead of having the politics coming all over again, why not we join our hands together and and work hard in fighting for ourselves in achieving what we really want for CO? isn't this a better choice?

damn, i'm tired of all these.


29mar07 Thursday

the exploring nerve strikes yet again, on a wrong day though. Bang and i decided to climb the 'hill' towards AHS and 'explore' around. i've been living in this area for around 5 years and i still don't know how the nearest block of flats look like, let alone it's block number. i'm not a direction idiot, it's just that my family don't really go round exploring what's there or not. now, i really want to get the feel of what a real neighborhood should be like. yes, it's on a wrong day. but nevertheless, we did it. =)

headed down to block85 (the only real block number i know) and had dinner. i realize i kept eating dinner nowadays when actually i could skip them last time. i always thought i could skip any meals without feeling hungry till the next meal, but i realize i can't now. i fear that gastric pains will come knocking into me again so i have to spend the money on food. i used to think that spending money on food is a total waste, but come to think of it, it's a blessing to EAT even the simplest food.

on the other hand, maybe i am influenced by the people i hang out with nowadays. they eat alot. they don't even feel full when they actually ate more than i do. the worse thing is: THEY ARE NOT FAT! damn. i hate these people.GRR! maybe i should hang out with anorexic(s)...

30mar07 Friday

big ugly spots crawled onto my skin while i was having CO practice. i was totally freaked out. they were so itchy that i felt like gunning my spots-infected-legs down. thanks to jenny, geraldyne and those who strongly scolded me for scratching. i know the scoldings are for my own good, but they are too itchy ah, i had no choice.

CO ended with a 2hour exco meeting. quite alot of things settled, i hope. this should at least rest some of our minds.

31mar07 Saturday

met up with jie shi to fix fatin's birthday present early (no, i mean lately. because i was late. SORRY!). we had a hard time trying to hide those censored girl's stuff from the public in LJS while at the same time trying to rush to meet the other 3 girls. on the whole, i think the box looks pretty impressive. =) thanks to the most creative 2: jie shi and me. *grins*


headed down to far east with jie shi, meeting up with lin2, kristin and fatin to have the much craved... FRIED MARS BARS!


it's not bad, but i still think the calamari rings are better. =) i'm a sotong fan! heehee.

when we saw the neoprint shop, we were screaming like mad little girls (but we are 18), just because we haven't been spending money on neoprints. haha. and i seriously think the neoprints turn out really pretty! i love the girls! we passed fatin's present to her and boy, should have taped down her expression. haha. i think the inside is pretty interesting huh! =)

oh oh! and we see an interesting affair going on. had a little chat with the interesting couple and we, being girls, blatantly insisted that they should be together and we went on with our own shopping.

some auntie mistook us for 12 years' old girls. =.= should i feel insulted or happy? but i was damn shocked when even kristin was mistook for being 12 years' old. it's not that kristin looks old, but really, 12 YEARS'?! we are not that young lar. or maybe, we DO look THAT young.

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mr wong called my mama to tell her that i am underachieving in chem. as expected, she's not too happy about that. but she didn't know that MORE teachers will be calling her. damn. i just hope the teachers don't really bad mouth about me, if not i'll die of a horrible death. actually, i deserve it la. i really didn't put in any effort for block test and i just totally sucked lar. i have no idea, i think i've gone stupid. no matter how much attention i paid in lecture now, i still don't get what the lecturer is talking about; especially physics. i'm in such hot shit soup and i think my As will be dead if i still don't buck up. damn.

some angel, please descend to help me. =(

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