12:17 PM

it has been on my mind all this while..

is it true that being in love will make someone fatter?

i've been ALOT fatter, i admit. i cannot believe it! though i haven't fish out the weighing machine from the webbed storeroom, i still feel my fats clinging onto me like a koala bear to a tree. i hate being fat, really. i have been eating well after 8pm everyday for dinner and sleeping right after that because i feel tired. is it me or is it just the love, like everyone has been comforting me about?

actually i should feel happy. because if the above question is true, it means that i'm in SO MUCH love. but at the same time, i feel sad when i feel fat. so.. should i feel happy or sad? it's so contradicting!

i asked THE BOY one day about this and i came to this conclusion.. i want to be in love and thin at the same time, though it's pretty much difficult. oh wells. i should just start my gym-ing and swimming soon. so i can be healthy, in love and thin at the same time. my true happiness. =) haha.

i hate public holidays because i cannot meet up with him because i have to go out with my family because today is my parents' 20th anniversary because they fell in love when they were teenagers because they were attractive to each other because... yea, and the story goes on. i think i'm sick -- love sick to be exact. BOO!

looking forward